so these are my thoughts - now - this is where i reside - alone in the dark with nothing to hide - like a bear in a cave - i'm curled up tight - lethargic inside - a slumber, or plight - i have nothing to do - have nothing to think - nowhere to go - but the lake, and i'll sink - like my limbs are bound and shackled - like my head encased in shroud - like a charge who is not guilty - i slump my shoulders, modest, loud - but what i want now, sadness - i want to feel foul - i want to break these restraints and i want to fucking howl - i'm a soul who's bound in anguish - a body not quite sane - i'm a being who sees loss now where once he thought to gain - from my sleep i wobbled weakly - to my sleep i now return - i plunge into cold darkness and sink beneath the churn of waves that offer solace - a desolate embrace - a sinking, drifting, calmness to which i raise my face - to be kissed at last by moonlight as i fade far out of sight...