Take It, Give it

Saw her standing under the willow
Her smile was a bloom of sorrow
All her tears i would borrow
Just so she couldnt have them tomorrow

Her face was as pale as the moon
Her thoughts where filled with gloom
Waiting to be released by her doom
I'd take it away to give her a peaceful noon

All for her i'd give my dreams away
Just so she wouldnt feel the decay
Of life that torments her each day
I'd take it all no matter what the pay

Blue velvet take it, give it to me
Her tide a deep dark blue sea
Let her crows flock away free
A bitter day dont let her see

Deep (Inside She Knew)

Deep within her stomach
Birth a child in her womb
Born from all her mistakes
She was raised in a tomb

In a world built on destruction
She always felt, she was alone
And when all agony seems to be at an end
Deep inside she knew it just started to begin

Days went on clinging to what was left
Jumping to place to place hoping for the best
Her thought keep growing dark in the night
Tell she felt the life she was leading she had no right

In a world built on destruction
She always felt, she was alone
And when all agony seems to be at an end
Deep inside she knew it just started to begin

Tell one fateful afternoon
She put the gun to her head
Couldn’t reed herself of the feeling
So she felt she be better dead

(hmm... i had trouble with the last section... keep drawing blanks... hope what i came up with is alright)

A Love Desire

It feels like an eternity
Since the last time we touched
The fire you lit inside me
Will forever be torched

Your lips where like wine
Filling me with desire
Each kiss a wet dream
Taking me one step higher

When we held each other
In the blissful moonlight
Our bodies heated hotter than fire
Nothing could burn quite as bright

My mind still drifts as I ponder
How could such a maiden come to be
Your eyes a gem that feels me with wonder
And your voice gives me ecstasy

Everyday when I see you
I feel I'm in a place not known by pain
And I hope you can feel it too
Darling I love you, I'll be with you soon

listen to some music, and decided to right...eeh

Untitled

Like ways, you were able to act
Make people believe in all your words
Tell it became to full then you threw away the plate
And the you’d always get a new deck of cards

Play with them like you did me
And break them down tell they cant breath
Wake them from a dream
To a nightmare full of death

Tell one day you had no one
No one left to be your pawn
there all gone and your all alone
Sorrow came from your heart of stone

Your days of youth have run dry
Your words to use are seeable lies
Your only friend just want to plant there seed
Your game is so damn easy

lifeless thoughtless worthless

my eyes are a blood red
my heart a cold stone grey
my mind broken and dead
my voice a distorted nay

I shake when I’m alone
fragile I have become
pride was my only home
my love fatal and damned

portray a clone of one of you
lifeless thoughtless worthless
a programmed drone set on woe
a clashing wave that is endless

I tire so that I wait no more
to do so would bring me bore
an end would be such a lure
for one such as I the impure

when in time will tell
how unknown but where
the deepest past of hell
and I don’t even care

let the flames cover me
my only last dream
a tortured realm a fire sea
my only desired future den

Sorrow That Never Ends

I still recall the sound
of my heart beating out of tune
like river that entwines
with the ocean

its clashes out of control
then meets a dead calm
only to start up again
a cycle that will not end

and I don’t know what to do
I’m drowning, sinking deep
my world feels like its over
and like a waterfall I weep

sometimes I don’t notice at all
tell it hits like a wave that catches you off guard
nailing you up against the current wall
tearing your heart to shards

then you cant seem to breath
the air that was in you has been knocked out
suddenly you find yourself beneath
a place where there is no drought

and no matter how hard you try
your stuck between a rock and a hard place
hoping that soon your find away
for no tear you clam your face

wounds hurt worse when unspoken


Broken forgotten
Withered rejected
Weaken sunken
Suffered tortured

Spine
No back bone
Left all alone
No one to hear
Hear moan
What’s inside me
An empty cry
Nor tears to see

My mind's full of words
That I want to say
But I don’t, just stay silent
For another day

It builds and builds
Till its over built
And cant come out
My words are spilt

They don’t make any since
They seem so irrelevant
You don’t understand
What they meant

Lost inside, I have become
Drowned out by the tide
Of all little that I done
A wound open to wide

Only to shut
At the end

I dedicate this to my grand mother, my she rest in peace.
July 21, 1947 - November 26 2007

In Love And Memory

I saw the sky turn to a shade of grey
I felt the wind bring a cold chill
An angel just went and closed her eyes
And time it self just went at a stand still

An echo of remorseful sorrow fills the halls
As the sound of rain seems to be amplified
And there's not a cloud in sight nor a waterfall
Just the ones left standing right by her side

She was the back bone that let us walk
She treated you like family even if you wasn't
And without her it seems that all is lost
But she will always be here even in our dreams

In love and memory, forever and ever,
Rest in peace, for every thought of you we savior

lol "the god aweful poet who want stop posting is back muhaha"

I could do without the lies
in this life of compromise

I could do without the hate
in your mind its so irate

This world is a shallow place
Most the time you don’t see
Your just hypnotized by faces
So pretty and pleasing to see

What your hearing is sugar
If only you could taste the salt
It would make you quiver
And stop you on the spot

If only, if only
You saw the world I see
Would you stare or turn away
Would you listen to the lies
Believe in false idols
So you wouldn’t have to worry
Cause you’d be saved

The human race is such a waste
Lost beneath buried crust
No logic in sight but the fear
Which will be there forever

No worries just bills to pay
No worries just stomachs to feed
No worries just bonds to decay
No worries just minds to mend
No worries just wars to fight
No worries just money to make
No worries just souls to save
No worries just graves to pave
No worries be happy


Religion is mind control
Induced by fear
The war you fight
You do for the right
Cause in god we trust
The dam is about to bust…..

Inside My Head With The Troll Gnome,
Telling Tales Of Ducks And Monkeys On The Blue Moon
On Demon Wings Purched On An Egg
Filled With Honey And A Dragon Fly's Leg

The Winds Blow Out From The Green Sky
Fields Of Lust And Naked Bodies Strong High
East To The Gallows Where Preachers Die
And My Wet Dreams Spuees From My Thy

Impure This Body Of Mine Covered In Sweat
From The Imposes Of Thoughts My Mind Is Set
Rape And Death Of A Fetus Thats Seen Death
Before Death Saw It Take It Last Breath

My Stomach Full Of Blood And Flesh
My Heart Torn From Its Ribb Cage
So Black It Is, With Tears Of Blight
There Is No Light Insight

Just A Wet Dream I Have Had For So Long
As I Stroke The Meat Of My Slung
And Cum On Bed Sheets Made Of Skin
To This Day I Live In My Dreams

"was listen to a song, got inspired to write"

you are my heart you are my world
and it hurts me that your tearing up my soul
never thought life could get so low
tell the day you let me go

try to sleep but i cant close my eyes
fore when i do i see you and it makes me cry
cant believe that it was all a lie
but the words you spoke had all the reasons why

now im left here all alone
in this world i call my own
torn from a broken shell of a man
who had you in all his future plans

see the days turn into weeks
hear your voice in all who speak
leading to wounds that all cut to deep
and all i seem to ever do is weep


what you see before you is incomplete
lost beneath the cracks below your feet
as i lie in wait from my defeat
tell the day i lie my head down to sleep

boiling inside my mind
are the lies from within
my mind aches
my heart breaks
my hate wakes
my fist shakes

from the pit of my stomach
the acid reflex rejects
my mind aches
my heart breaks
my hate wakes
my fist shakes

Tortured from within
And from outward scene
my mind aches
my heart breaks
my hate wakes
my fist shakes

I’ve held myself together for so long now
that I don’t know how, my life feels like one big foul
and I know I got my family the only ones that care
just feel I need a little more, is there anybody there

I’ve been alone for so long now that I sometimes wonder
if my life's just one big joke for everyone else to get there laughter
and if that’s the case when are they going to let me in on it
how long have I waited, how much time have I spent

From as far back as I can remember home was my room
a place were no one else was, when I am all alone
there I’m myself the one no one knows even exist
here I contemplate on how life is full of shit

Though I have tried to reach out to find someone
I only got burned I was just the dirt beneath the ground
that everyone seems to walk on as if I wasn’t even there
just the stepping stool to use to get yourself higher

day by day as the light of the day turns to the blackest night
waiting for the reaper to take away the only thing I got right
I stare into the nothingness of this world that I live in
and I think to myself when the fuck will it ever end

I feel I'm running out of answers as to why I am here
Everyday before I close my eyes to sleep I sear
If I could choose to stay asleep and never wake up
I would choose it cause I know I’m just a fuck up

Though I know it want happen nothing I want never does
I used to get high so I could at least feel a buzz
but now I’ve been straight edge for the past five years
I taught myself to be alone and to never show that I care

Time and time again I sometimes feel the slip
till I pull out my pin and paper and let myself rip
let go of all the anger and selfish acts of neglect
at least I have my pride the only thing that I respect

I my grow old, I my always be alone
I my never have a child to love as my own
but there in my heart I will always have a home
The darkest bit of pride this world has ever known

It will never be taking from me
Know matter how hard this world test me
For every dark night lies a brighter day
For every evil jester lies my laughter

I close my eyes to sleep
Though I hear the cars passing
I toss and turn to find my spot
So the dreams might turn on

If i cannot I think, I ponder
At lifes little sheep so ugly
Filled with untrue wonders
Till I become so sleepy

At times I day dream of futures
That will never past
Other times I day dream of past
An impoved one of my own

Tired so tired of dreaming
These dreams I have control over
Dreaming dreams in darkness
Are the ones that hurt the most

The dreams with no conrol
The dreams when I sleep
The dreams are filled with wonder
The dreams I do not weep