This is how i view the world, and how much it sucks.

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dreams remain of a time
where all things seem to be covered in innocents
It ran away to place so far gone
that it will forever be alone

A heart departed
Before it started
it want ever try again
it was jaded
already faded
it want ever try again

never had a chance in the world of man
born to hate on, born in a world that’s never going to change
so much anger, so much disease, no sign of compassion
so much lust, so many drugs, no sign of human reasoning

A heart departed
Before it started
it want ever try again
it was jaded
already faded
it want ever try again

doesn’t matter if you change your ways
this world of life has already meet its end
no one cares about feelings unless its there’s
so stop lying to yourself there’s no need to pretend

Human Grotest

A mindless nations filled with drones
And a puppet master of crime
Using faith for his advantage
World history is writing a new page
Titled end

In the first reign as master
He brought a nation to war
He sot out evil weapons
Those words where his cash in
Titled delusion

They followed so easy
But why wouldn’t they
God was on there side
Another human made lie
Titled religion

Everyone is fucked and dead
You just don’t know it yet

But what is there to expect
From a world so corrupt
Where we infest like insects
Killing all as though not grotest
Titled human

well sometimes love is a silly game
you don't know your being played
it feels so real it should be a crime
your heart has been forever scared

love is sick
it can make you forget
and do stupid shit
it'll make you hell bent

you walk down this line all alone
feel the emptiness start to grow
tell an angel comes and shows you the unknown
and you become somebody you don't know

love is sick
it can make you forget
and do stupid shit
it'll make you hell bent

it can heal and it can kill
depending on how you play the game
it'll be a happy or sad tale
but either way you will feel pain
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you know i loved you from the day we meet
i never thought it would lead to regret
but all those words that we're said
made me feel like i was long since dead

never know when its going to show
all that hurt its going to grow
your going to be stuck in the undertow
and your waterfall's going to flow

watch time slep by you in a flash
those days will be long since gone
but that wound is such a deep slash
your be surround and still feel alone

never know when its going to show
all that hurt its going to grow
your going to be stuck in the undertow
and your waterfall's going to flow

never thought is would come to this
my god feel like a total shit
tried so hard to over come
all the things that i become
and it feels like its not going to stop
pretty soon your hearts going to pop

never know when its going to show
all that hurt its going to grow
your going to be stuck in the undertow
and your waterfall's going to flow

I close my eyes but cant fall asleep
Got to many demons eating my sheep
I try my best to look forward
But I keep falling backwards

Wishing for someone to take away this darkness
A change of taste instead of this bitterness
All I want is to feel amount in eternal bliss
Perhaps from a maiden to show me how to kiss

But the world around me keeps on curving
So many twist and turns of self destruction
Laid to waste in a place of cruel rejection
Start to welcome my own annihilation

I don’t know why I cant reed myself
Of this tainted hatred of ugliness
That keeps building inside of me
Like shit covered in so many hungry flies

All I want is to be happy for once in my life
But my heart is scared from such a jagged knife
A wound that still hurts even though its from so long ago
Placing me in the deepest pit of this lonely undertow

So pointless this life seems
It can so easy erase your dreams
Only in a world of such disgust
Where everything is drugs and lust

body of clay

I'm buried beneath this body of clay
shaped and molded able to display
a lie and make it truth just to make you happy
though I hurt so bad to pretend is so easy
a smile for my face just to put on yours
but for how I really feel I bleed threw my pores
to see all I am is to see nothing but regret
as for this I life I'd love to play a game of Russian roulette
yet I keep going on trying to find my peace
hoping and trying to find my sweet release

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fragile position

Ever since first breath
I been trapped in a box
crafted with future fears
that turned me into a paradox

I block out all incoming visits
terrified that I may be rejected
only to put myself in a fragile position
that makes my life wasted

Looking back at all I done
And all that I become
I see myself undone
A blight lagoon

I become so far gone
That its to late to let anyone in
As I have tried once
And now I feel so sunken

The shallow world that I hate the most
Has become the embodiment that controls me
I find myself rejecting all that comes into it
Fading further into black, soon no one will see

I feel my heart is to far broken
I tried to fix it but made it worse
I know I'm hurting more than I should
But I feel my chest is about to burst

And what hurts the most
The lonely void I'm set to live
For me love is dead
And I have nothing else to give

I'm just a figure in the way
That has only one exit at the end
Not even really there
I'm just a fragment of your imagination
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becoming an end

I live alone in seclusion
With thoughts of apathy
Dreaming that I could adore
One to break free my melancholy

This tomb I have succome to subsist
Only to be accompanied by the echo
From the breath that I respire
In the deepest pit of my sorrow

Crowded only by thoughts of denunciation
That haunt me even as I lie awake
Laughter a sorrow not a pleasure
Fore from its pain is all I recollect

Tormented like an ocean
That never meets a calm
This life that I'm living
Is becoming an end
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World is Dead

Moonlight where have you gone
You lit up the night, when all was wrong
Now darkness is everywhere, there's no escape
The world is dead, the sun eclipsed

Man is the virus of Gaia
Stretched so far and still wants more
Oceans are like lava burning at the skin
Poor stay grounded and the rich stay clean

Blood spilt on all we walk on
Even the plans that are meant to live on
Forest are gone as if taken by the earth
No home to go, just a dirt hill we belong to

Death by are own greed
From man's seed
Always craving destruction
Now suffer annulations

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one in million lies

watch yourself grow tired by each day
as your life seems to be fading away
all you know and all that you been told
start to question the answers you been sold

can you really believe it,
that theres more to this life
than to divide and concur all,
well you keep your feelings inside

watch the faces of those that pass you by
as the world turns and another body dies
did they even have a chance to live
or were they just one in million lies

can you really believe it,
that theres more to this life
than to divide and concur all,
well you keep your feelings inside

for the rest of your life
will you take it
grab it by the hand
will you control it
or just let go
and become another lie
a dry spot to the eye
hanging in the crowd
want you stand and shout

can you really believe it,
that theres more to this life
than to divide and concur all,
well you keep your feelings inside

or will you change it

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Passing of the Days

(verse)
as i lie awake i have so many dreams of you
and i just want to hold you in my arms again
but your gone and your never coming back
why the hell does it got to be like that

(choirs)
life fades away in a flash
better enjoy it while it last
cause your never going to get a second chance
that is the passing of the days

(verse)
all my life i always wanted a friend
One to accept me for who i am
I my not be all i could have been
but i'll be there for you tell the end

(choirs)
life fades away in a flash
better enjoy it while it last
cause your never going to get a second chance
that is the passing of the days

(verse)
so hold on tight your on a one stop ride
and when its over it'll be the moment of all time
one life fades another takes there place
dont you rush it, its not a race

(choirs)
life fades away in a flash
better enjoy it while it last
cause your never going to get a second chance
that is the passing of the days

Something Missing

watch the day turn to night
the warmth to a cold breeze
silence on the streets
children all a sleep
waiting for a new day

and all seems to be okay
but there something missing
and all seems to be okay
but there something missing

wake up to get ready
for another day of work
then get off to get ready
to set in front of the tv and watch
tell you tire and fall asleep

and all seems to be okay
but there something missing
and all seems to be okay
but there something missing

where is my life
the one we'll all suppose to have
where is my life
the one thing i never had

where is a love
to keep me from falling beneath dirt
where is a love
to break me from from the spell of hurt

where is it all...

Want go Away

I fall apart every night and everyday
I know you don’t know cause I can hide it so easy
these feelings that I have, want go away
I know I’m hurting more than I should but it want go away

there’s no blood leaking from the wound
and its more pain than any broken bone
it brings me down to my trembling knees
feels like I’m drowning in the deepest ocean

I remember a time when I never felt this way
I sometimes wish I was living in those lonesome days
before the warmth and love that I never felt
could hurt me when it all went away

I know I lied to myself to think I could be loved
I know I loved her more than I loved myself
just for once I wanted to feel like I was alive
but instead I’m dead though I still I live

and I feel I’m living life without a cause
everyday feels the same nothing ever changes
this routine doesn’t want to go away
sometimes I wish I didn’t have to stay

Cannibal of Hearts

Does the life you lead, come to you at a cost
Burying your past, does it chill you like frost
Tell yourself your right and you did no wrong
Does that make you happy, will it make you strong

You got your high on taking what you want
But when you get tired of it you throw it away
You take a new meal that hasn't been burnt
You light it on fire then search for new prey

And just for kicks your go for seconds
Your heal the wounds then begin to rape
Your the lustful angel that turns demon
Caring so carefully tell the bitch awakes

Innocent, that's how you play the game
Creating lies to cover your tracks
You're the shape shifting slut
I can see right threw your mask

A victim in your line of fire
Who didn't know the cost
You brought to him much desire
Soon he will be lost

As you play your favorite game
Using the hearts emotion
To get you all the gain
Leaving your wounded broken

And you will repeat this all your life
Tell pretty soon all will hate you
And no one will visit your grave
Cannibal of hearts your so cruel

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Sorrow and Hope

why cant I be as strong as you
leave the past and start a new
find a love and give a chance
instead of wondering why I exist

why cant I get over you
why do I play the fool
a role that I seem to play
so very, very fucking well

last night as I lied in bed
a picture of you came in my head
and all those times we spent together
seemed to hurt me even further

when I cant seem to fall asleep
I write these poems so I don’t weep
intent on someday that I will forget
of all we were in the past

the sun rises and I didn’t sleep
start the day with sorrow inside
and I take the day as it comes
I walk along I never run

from the thing that hurts most of all
I gave you everything including my soul
and you turned around and you looked at me
you told me my flaws and told me we couldn’t be

but that wasn’t all you did
you waited tell I healed
and you told me you loved me
and then you told me we were nothing

my heart filled with love
then leaked making a grave
a hole so deep it had no end
though sometimes I like to pretend

that soon I’ll fall in love
and forget your name and all there was
with an angel that’s sent from above
and we fly higher than the doves

I guess that’s what keeps me going
hoping that soon there be something
that makes me complete of all things
and that it want just be a dream.

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(i wrote this one in high school)
Deep

I cannot sleep on my bed
I'm into deep over my head
I cannot weep I drown instead
Deep inside I feel so dead
Want to keep what is real to me
Want to feel it on my bed you see
Till the day comes when I am dead
Never to feel what is real,
I stay and wonder in my head
I wish I had feed this hunger in my chest
But its to late I set and rest
I go deep into sleep
Dreaming of my own death
I count each breath
Deeper and deeper I go
As I sleep in my bed
Want to fill my head with thoughts and dreams
Only to get it in a simple wet dream
I go deep so deep I scream
Am I gone am I dead
I wonder in my head
Its just a dream
I'm having in my sleep
As I realize as I weep
As it beats deep
Deep inside my chest
I am dead I cant even rest
In my chest is a black, cold, dead thing pictured in my head
Might as well be dead
As I fall deep
Deep into my sleep

set upon a stone
that could not be thrown
was a man without a throne

traveling looking for something
that would be his treasure
for all his life

beginning to prey
for a better tomorrow
what a fool
drowning in his sorrow
never mind
life's not for borrow

lost for all its worth
love not giving from birth
till his last breath

got to pick yourself up
don't you know
thats why we fall

beginning to prey
for a better tomorrow
what a fool
drowning in his sorrow
never mind
life's not for borrow

he's lost again
and this time
he's not coming back

oh no, no, he not
he threw away all he's got
welcome to rot

a dying day

lost beneath the surface of a dying day
kept your feeling hide you made them stray
only to try to let them out and be shut away
and everything seems lost in everyday

crashing current took you by surprise
cant seem to get yourself at ease
lost from all those you used to love
till it catches up to you at the end

watching time pass you by each day
and you never seem to be on your way
always keeping yourself at bay
lost beneath the surface of a dying day

Shy

I saw her standing there
She called out to me by name
And I froze stiff as ice
It always ends the same

I don’t know what to say
I tend to look toward the ground
This feeling deep inside
Cant keep my eyes from looking down

Uh ah

And when she touches me
I feel I’m in a dream
Where everything seem unreal
There so much sunshine

Then I try to speak
But nothing seems to come out
there so much I want to say
And its accompanied by doubt

Uh ah

What will she do
If I tell her how I feel
Feel the same as me
Could this be real?

times they are a changing

walk the days on a ball and chain
don’t even realize the last time
that you went out and stood in the rain

work all day to pay the bills
remember how that check used to feel
when you'd spend it on your thrills

times they are a changing
nothing stays the same
and everything comes to an end
times they are a changing
nothing stays the same
even if you try to pretend

wake up to a daily routine
when you don’t its so obscene
get to relax before the day ends

start to miss those days
when everything didn’t matter anyway
now your just be on your way

times they are a changing
nothing stays the same
and everything comes to an end
times they are a changing
nothing stays the same
even if you try to pretend

you grew up and didnt realize
that your paying for your burger and fries
and we'll be doing for the rest of our lives

Give Pain A Rest

you made me bleed
cant you see
the words you say
are hurting me

and every time
that you say
those hurtful things
i fade away

memories they come and go
but heartache is here to stay

don't you know
I'm just like you
if you cut me
i bleed too

why cant we
just be at peace
lets be friends
and give pain a rest

memories they come and go
but heartache is here to stay

why don't you
just take a breath
sooner or later
we all meet death

memories they come and go
but heartache is here to stay

my mind is set on empty
my heart never got a chance to eat
at times this world seems so lonely
and everything seems to repeat

i dug myself a grave already
i put myself in then covered myself up
treading threw this life so easy
though from the start i had enough

never had a chance to begin with
though i pretend not to care
im always looking for something beneath
this chest of mine hoping somethings there

i been caught in a tide of rain fall
not shown from outside only from within
though i my look as im standing tall
im crouched over waiting for the end

sometimes i have dreams that im someone else
living in a home with a family
other times i dream im living by myself
only to realize im awake in reality

ive been waiting for something to come
to change this current thats flowing
so i my look back and be happy for all i done
but thats all just wishful thinking

as the ocean of life seems endless
only at the end you finally see
that if you live your life reckless
pretty soon your be lost at sea