Got the best of me. It's here still but not as strong. Having a great GF, and now writing music a lot again has lifted my spirits. I don't know what the future of vac is financially. Don't care anymore. I have a fan base, and I still like making music so that is all it takes now. No more ideals.

I want to be more positive now, so I am going to post more helpful things, and more ideas and stuff instead of bitching about piracy and the lack of money and band etc.

I've personally noticed that trying to spread positive "vibes", even if you're not really feeling all that uppidy can help either way.

It just creates a more uplifting atmosphere around you. You get people around you seeing in that same light rather than clouding everything and everyone around you with the darkness you may feel.

I'd describe my depression as a "fog". It just makes everything very dark. It's weird, because when I'm "up", it almost literally feels like I see things better. I enjoy the sunlight more. The warmth of it, the smell of the air, everything is just different.

Life's difficult because of how easily slipping back into that dark hole can be...and then by being negative, people around you may enable that sort of thinking by nodding and agreeing with your negativity.
Especially if you're a person with a powerful personality...when you're down, people around you will just perpetuate that.


It's good you're trying to make an effort in the other direction.
It's a daily battle, that's all I know.

in the last few days, i noticed good things in your posts, so it's a great thing. i think that your gf is for a big part in that. it's my opinion. so now, you're not alone for your problems. you have a great support and it"s very important. for your music, if your depression is not strong as you have known, it will better for your creativity. i remember me with my depression, no way for concentration, creativity when i wanted to write. it was so frustrating.. so it can be a new beginning in so many ways. i hope it will go on, man. i'm really happy for you.

Good to hear...
right on about talking positive SoleControl.
I try to be positive too even out of a bad situation. >.<'
it's real tough though....

my depression still gets the best of me at times and has been the past week or so fairly badly. cyclical thinking and unadmitted thoughts are the things that really undo me but i really do want to try and enjoy life and work on my mental. i know if i can try to get some of this negative thinking i've perpetuated undone then maybe i can slowly become the man i want to be eventually. that will be my challenge throughout life and i know to start attempting that it really is time to appreciate the small things and build from there.

positive energy activates constant elevation.

Depression is a drug, at least is a cheap one.